[ə٨٥٦] this is my way of lovin u ♥

2010-02-08T05:32:00.000-08:00

its a freakin misunderstandin !

2010-01-29T08:06:00.001-08:00

exams !

2010-01-23T21:13:00.001-08:00

drink drank drunk ? (:

2010-01-15T09:48:00.000-08:00

PICNIC ! (:

2010-01-10T05:52:00.001-08:00

tmr !
first day of skool ! (:

2010-01-07T07:43:00.000-08:00

life is so fragile,
expect e unexpected.

2009-12-18T08:33:00.000-08:00

its not jus smiles n hugs, it was evrlastin ! (:

2009-12-07T22:52:00.000-08:00

start a new chapter on a new page ! (:

2009-12-04T23:47:00.001-08:00

wat said cannot be undone,
all i can do nw is apologise,
apologise,
apologise,
apologise,
& apologise.

i'd really didn't knw y i said tt,
even nw when i found out bout it,
i also cannot rmb tt i said tt,
n i dun knw y i said tt.
all i knw is tt i really m sorry towards u,
u took care of me wen im drunk help me with all those stuffs,
instead i said those hurtful words towards u.
i knw i was drunk.
but still smting so hurtful still came out like tt,
i really didn't mean it,
i can't even forgive myself,
cause i knw i was really in e wrong,
be it i was drunk or sober.
i knw u dun hold it against me,
u r tryin to forget bout it
but i jus can't seem to forgive myself for bein such an ass!
i really didn't mean it,
wen ppl told me recently,
i myself was in shock.

i knw wat i say nw won't really make a diff,
all i wan to say is,

I M REALLY SORRY !

2009-11-22T09:51:00.000-08:00

18 alrdy ?
had a really great birthday,
was drunk ?
but eventually all went well !
had a really fun time, although he cannot make it !
but i'd still hope tt he got cm,
but he his to work !
its okk, as long i get to tok to him on e phone n msg !
its understanderble !
:D

jus turned 18, new romance maybe?
i shall not put so much hope first,
will just let nature takes it course,
but i hope i will work out well !
we'll jus see hw it goes ! (:

hahahaaaa !

tank u all ppl, who helped out, cmin, takin care of me, presents !
really greatful !

2009-11-17T08:15:00.000-08:00

2 more days n still countin, i can hardly wait !

~bad romance ?
do i still **** you ?

2009-11-15T08:13:00.000-08:00

SICK !
BAD HEADACHE !

2009-11-14T07:20:00.000-08:00

weird feelings ?!

2009-10-18T09:19:00.001-07:00

handsome ? (:

2009-10-17T09:43:00.000-07:00

i can't fall apart at tis period of e time !
kept tellin myself tt evrythings alrite,
well,
it seems to be tt case?
i guesss?

NO HOPES !
NO PATIENCE !
NO NOTHING !

2009-08-18T03:18:00.000-07:00

WTF!
my freakin com crash la !
Haiyo...
very jia lat leh !
But way to do,
I myself very lazy to do anyting bout it .
so nw usin itouch to blog!
Very hard to type...

2009-07-13T00:31:00.000-07:00

IM GONNA GET MY APPLE ITOUCH SOON ! (only this left)

*got my VODKA, BOMBAY SAPPHIRE liqour, BIRTHDAY CHALET (grand day, EVRYone's invited) RALPH LAUREN small canvas tote & many many more !
bought all tis !

**im gettin richer ! i tink !
:D

2009-06-28T04:39:00.000-07:00

please know wher u stand !

B Y A T C H !

sue me if u dare !

if u sue me,

wher do u get e money ?

DUMBASS !

workin at tt place wit no money no nothin !

stupid ppl have stupid ideas !

yr not pretty !

tomboy !

wat else ?

Dressin sense ?

CMI !

2009-06-07T04:28:00.000-07:00

its all ovr !

well,

but i can't be bothered !

its sort of a good ting !

won't elaborate so much,

freakin bored !

hmmm,

e last week was e worse week evr!

so many tings jus suddenly happen

make me so lost,

dun knw wat to do !

can smbody reach out n help me ?

its so complicated tt i dun evn knw hw to share wit anyone !
&

its very private !

uhh,

NASY's birthday is cmin !

can't wait to celebrate it wit her !

all of us have been so busy n has no time to meet up,

finally,

tis is e chance !

i knw e feelin of bein cheated !

but den ive got no choice,

but

TO GET OVR IT !

im gonna do it,

i cannot just keep hangin on,

but it doesn't matter !

he can be still be as good lookin,

cute,

BLAH BLAH BLAH !

i care,

i dare to say,

I CARE !

but den so?

he dun care,

im super tired of all tis crap !

all i can say nw is tt

HE IS STILL AS CHILDISH AS EVR !

lovin him won't let me gain anything !

im jus plain stupidity stupid !

OMG !

i can't evn believe it myself la !

but it jus ended wit 1 sentence,

well,

its been exactly 1 yr !

i'd dun jnw hw i ovrcm it,

tis 1 yr,

ive been playin wit evry guy i meet !

let it stop !

i cannot take it tt im like tt,

ive hurt enuf guys !

p.s. oh god !
please,
im beggin u,
find me an ANGEL tt will guide me thru,
take care of me,
nevr leave me,
love me,
let me forget evryting,
includin HIM especially !
jus let me find a good guy tt is not a JERK !

2009-05-27T08:00:00.000-07:00

its always a risk to like smone
n it involves time,
patience
n
understandin
to get smone heart to open up,
at times,
it will work;
other times,
it won't
but tt's y u call it a
RISK --
u invest in smtingn ther's a
possibility
tt u won't win,
howevr,
u will still get smting in return;
strength of heart
n
mind,
n e assurance tt u won't have a any regrets
from not trying !

2009-05-23T00:47:00.000-07:00

its been ages !

i miss u all !

2009-04-19T03:16:00.000-07:00

17 AGAIN !

zac efron is so cute n so hot !

OMG !

e movie was nice !

wen to watch it wit ysabel !

didn't meet her her quite smtime,

really missed her !

i miss ruikun, amelia, nasyita, aishah, cheng da ... etc !

imissallofthem !

2009-04-17T00:21:00.000-07:00

Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will
Will I take tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will
Yeah
And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you (there for you)
I promise
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will
And I promise (and I promise)
I promise (oh I promise you)
I will be there when you call me (when you call me)
I promise (I promise)
I promise I will

2009-04-05T04:02:00.000-07:00

TROUBLED!

wat shuld i do?

i really dun knw..

ive nothin else to say,

its like...

F UP !

i'd jus hope tt u drift apart,

i really dun knw wat to do bout it,

i don't knw if u still trust me,

hmmm,

i hope will still be like last time !

2009-04-04T01:00:00.001-07:00

hmmm, hw do i phrase it ?

let me tink...

err,

it all started off wit tis person,

im jus colleagues wit tis person,

n den she has a bf n she n her bf is in a relationship wit no string attached ?

like WTF !

den u ask him to contact me ?!

n den u n jio e guy tt i like ?

WTH !!

please respect it !!

since u have a gf, y can't u jus stick to yr own gf, & ask yr gf to stick to yrself, if both of u r in a relationship jus be serious wit each other la .. for heaven's sake ! stop acting like yr single n evryting, if u wan to be in a no string attach relationshipden please dun be in a relationship, ure jus spoilin e meanin of two person lovin each other couples beion in a relationship ! seriously, i dun wish to entertain tis nonsense again, do u knw hw many couples tt love each othern cannot be tgt ? have u ever think of tt ? shuld u cherish e one t u really really love ?! u have one , so u shuld stop foolin around, dun cmn jio me, im not interested, i like smone else, hahahha!

wells,

tt's all i gotta say.

whether u wan listen to me is another tings,

ive said my peace !

2009-03-28T00:37:00.000-07:00

smtimes its really hard to let go i guess ?

but den ive got no choice...

but e feelin sucks !

im sorry if im too straightforward !

well tt me..

so TOO BAD !

im seriouly scared tt i'll fall for u !

but dun knw wat to do,

although i got tell u alrdy,

i'd guess im still not ready,

or i got not courage ?

i seriouly dun knw,

im jus too timid nw,

aft all e bad relationships...

aft bein hurt so much fallin for smone...

2009-03-17T23:35:00.000-07:00

today's e 3RD DAY !

well's i'll jus see hw long can tis go on ?!

although bit disappointed la,

but i dun wan to make e first move,

i knw i started it,

maybe i deserve it?

cause i intiated it,

but den i dun wan to make e first move?

its my fault i knw.

but i'd jus wanna let u knw hw i felt ?!

is tt wrong ?!

i can't wait for MONDAY !

YEAH ~

im goin out wit him,

im so so excited !

goin to watch movie,

maybe PUSH or RACE TO WITCH MOUNTAIN ?!

2009-03-07T03:17:00.000-08:00

smtimes i really wonder wat is LOVIN a person all bout ??
anyone wanna tell me ?
PLEASE ?!

nw lovin or not lovin u is not e problem alrdy

2009-02-16T20:59:00.000-08:00

being loved or being in love ?!

understand?

smtimes wen thing dun go my way,

i'll normally think tt,

maybe being loved is better,

at least i won't get hurt,

but getting into it is easy,

getting out of it is e worse problem,

n no matter wat it'll hurt e opposite party,

which sacrified so so much for me n just trying so hard to me fall in love wit him,

but it won't work,

cause e feelings so so diff..

aft all,

aft evrything has happen,

let's just do 1 ting ba,

CHANGE NEW HAIR STYLE !

n aft evry difficult situation,

im STRONGER,

TOUGHER,

PRETTIER,

SEXIER,

HOTTER,

CHARMING !

many many more,

i'd realise n understand tt no matter wat,

i need to LOVE myself more den anything else !

2009-02-07T23:13:00.000-08:00

last nite i was so HAPPY !

i couldn't get to sleep

although, smting happen tt really made me no MOOD !

but,

ARHHHHHHH !

i nw still make myself believed tt wat ive done ytd.

i PLUCKED UP MY COURAGE,

n i'd jus send HIM a msg tt i wanted to send him LONG LONG AGO !

n guessed wat ?!

he replied ..

n we jus tok los,

its been so LONG evr since we tok to each other,

I MISSED HIM EVEN MORE DEN BEFORE !

hw i wished,

things can go back like before

2009-02-05T23:00:00.000-08:00

wats left to be said i shall not say it again, i'd just didn't knw tt it'll all end e sm la. disappointed i tink, y does it always end like tt ? his e first ghuy tt i put dwn my pride n tell him i like him, n tis is wat i get ?did i do anyting wrong ?

love must persever to e end,

but noble love is tt u can give up evryting for e one tt u love,

n let him be happy,

tank u for e sweet memories tt we shared,

i love u !

2009-01-27T21:58:00.000-08:00

smtimes i wonder y ppl cry for ?

release stress ?

unhappy stuff ?

but last nits i finally understand la,

CRYIN really helps,

as in seriously helped,

HELPED alot !

i dun knw y i jus cry la,

i tinnk maybe it really HURTS ALOT,

i GUESS ?

was watchin tv,

den i'd jus started tearin la.

perhaps i was too ANGRY ?

or i was DISAPPOINTED in him ?

tis is e 2nd time,

last week also like tt,

but i didn't cry la.

i dun knw wats wrong wit me la,

im been losin my temper easily..

wells,

anyways,

IM SORRY !

if i was too harsh.

2009-01-23T19:50:00.000-08:00

chinese new year is coming !
im so excited la,

2009-01-21T23:43:00.000-08:00

wells,

im not ANGRY ALRDY i guess ?

or maybe,

YES ?

i dun knw,

i tink im just angry wit myself,

i'd didn't make myself clear enuf?!

but hey,

IM NOT TT CHEAP OKK !!

its not tt im not forgivin u,

but its like...

i dun knw wat to do also,

but y did u SUDDENLY ask me tt STUPID question ?

WATEVR la !

2009-01-20T00:39:00.000-08:00

FINALLY !

updating my blog again !

but got nothing much,

i tink !

err,

anyways i got another NEW job wit a BETTER pay,

most of all,

only need to work 4 hrs a day..

so SHIOK rite ?

e pay is $6.30/ hr++

wells,

gtg !

toodles (:

my love for u will nevr end

2009-01-06T06:03:00.000-08:00

MY BLOGS DEAD !

2008-12-04T17:41:00.000-08:00

CAN SMONE PLEASE SEND TO ME ALL MY BIRTHDAY PHOTOS ??

ANYONE ?!

can't wait to see all those stupid ppl faces,

they confrim look very funny de los,

I SWEAR !

finally la,

nw den got time to blog,

cause later im goin holiday le,

will be bac 10 days later,

DUN MISS ME PPL K?

i only have sm of e photos,

nw jus waitin for JUNI SYAZWANI to send me most of e phtos los

but it tink wen im bac from my holiday den can upload ba

but i'll jus upload sm of it tt i have first

2008-11-13T10:24:00.000-08:00

HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO !

~ will be bloggin soon ba,

i guess ?

once i have e time to upload

blog bout e latest GOSSIPS !

YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH !

CAN'T WAIT !

got lots of photos to upload DEFINATELY !

sat n sun off..

yupp yupp,

will be goin to www wit NASY N HALIZAH !

my BELOVED DARLINGS !

so long aft goin out again la,

sad la,

AISHAH can't cm along !

do u evr care if i'd evr have e chance to tell u again tt i still LOVE u?

will u evn give me e chance?

do u care evn if i tell u ?

i'd love u to want me !

I'D STILL LOVE U MY BELOVED ONE !

im SORRY if i evr hurt u !

i can't bear to give u up,

it still pains in my heart !

2008-10-27T22:10:00.000-07:00

HELLO !

im back,

so so so so so so long nevr BLOG !

cause im BUSY !

n im so LAZY !

guess i'll jus post photos,

very very lazy to type

u'll always be my baby

i'd still love you ! ♥

2008-10-11T06:37:00.000-07:00

finally, aft so long la,

was so so so busy ..

my handphone SPOIL !

so irritated wit it !

bleh.

anyways im also irritated wit sm ppl la,

y can't they jus get a LIFE !

its okk,

i shuld keep my cool,

y get angry ovr STUPID ppl !

i hate them !

2008-09-17T22:48:00.000-07:00

smone FLY MY KITE again !

SUPER PISSED OFF !

im so sick n tired of yr HOT N COLD attitude towards me !

hw many times u tel me say we will meet ?

but in e end,

all sorts of excuses cms out ?

n hw can u say ive not CHANGE ?

n ive not GROWN UP ???

WTF !

HELLO ?!

its not like a one or two time thingy ?

if its yr 1st or 2nd time,

if im angry,

den im super UNREASONABLE lah ..

but e probloem is,

its NOT e 1st time .

so hw can u expect me not to be angry ?

i really dun understand wat u wan?

msg u ,

smtimes dun evn reply ?

WTH !

WATEVR !

ive decided,

i knw wat i wan,

n i knw wat to do ..

had REVENUE chalet on tues n wed,

had lots of fun time..

e food was nice la,

next time can order again,

den dun need to watse time ownself marinatin e food,

took lots of photos,

all e SILLY us ..

supposinly,

aft e trainin on sun,

we were goin to gelang,

but den it rained,

so decided not too.

ive missed my chance of goin again ..

maybe next week can go ba

aft all maybe sayin sorry is e rite thing to do !

tis is real, this is me

im excatly wher

im supposed to be nw

Gonna let the light shine on me

now ive found who im

There's no way to hold it in

No more hiding who I want to be

This is me

2008-09-10T22:11:00.000-07:00

im super de duper BORED !!

help me out of my boredem,

you gave me wings and made me fly

you touched my hand i could touch the sky

i lost my faith, you gave it back to me

you said no star was out of reach

you stood by me and i stood tall

i had your love i had it all

im grateful for each day you gave me

maybe i don't know that much

but i know this much is true

i was blessed because i was loved by you

2008-09-08T20:40:00.000-07:00

i CUT my hair

look like china doll,

wit my bright RED highlight,

plus i rebonded my hair,

so now i really look like a doll los..

bleh

lazy to continue writin,

will jus upload fotos

you were my strength when i was weak

you were my voice when i couldn't speak

you were my eyes when i couldn't see

you saw the best there was in me

lifted me up when i couldn't reach

you gave me faith 'coz you believed

im everything i am

because you loved me

2008-08-27T06:24:00.000-07:00

SENTOSA !

had a super fun time ytd,

although our team is last,

cause we sort of like QUIT half way thru ..

we went to play e LUGE ride

e SKYrider was so scary la !

its so high up wher my leg r like HANGIN ..

bleh

had lots of FUN n gd times wit e BITCHES !

hahahhha.

we were all cam whorin

all like super VAIN,

e worse thing was sittin e bus 65,

it was super super long la..

sit till now my bac bone still PAIN..

For all those times you stood by me

For all the truth that you made me see

For all the joy you brought to my life

For all the wrong that you made right

For every dream you made come true

For all the love i found in you

I'll be forever thankful baby

You're the one who held me up

Never let me fall

You're the one who saw me through through it all

2008-08-12T00:20:00.000-07:00

do i look like a LOAN SHARK to u ?
i wher got so much money to lend ppl,
i knw its my payday,
but den ..
i must tink of e rest of e month,
not i dun wanna lend u,
will i get back e money ?
simple,
NO !
den ?
hahahhha.
so sorry,
no money to lend !
:D

ramdomly,

stranger asked : do u tink tt u'll evr leave her for someone else ?

he said : r u CRAZY ? shes given me evrything, shes done so much for me, n e most impt thing is tt, i love her so much ! i must be crazy to leave her !

stranger said : wow, both of u love each other so much witout lettin e other person knw . if e other party knws bout it, she will be so touched !

he says : i love her so much, i dun tink i'll evr wan e chance to leave her lah !

wen e girl get to knw from e stranger wat he says, she was so touched, she jus cried ..

moral of e story, get e things rite be 4 makin any decision ! its takes time to realize wen someone really cares n love u !

2008-08-04T22:36:00.000-07:00

2 more days,

jus 2 more days,

its PAYDAY !
i can't wait

i gt so so so many thing tt i wan to do or buy lah.

hahahahhha.

now im like really really broke,

only left $1.35 n it'll last me till thursday ?

dun knw how to survive.

but i tink i will los.

jus stay at hm today,

tmr at work dun eat,

den thursday got money,

den can eat !

i tink tmr durin my break,

i'll jus go acc to sleep ..

cause i'll confirm will wanna get something to eat if im awke.

den will buy a green tea

it last me a whole day ba,

i guess ?

i tink tis month im not goin to shop so much,

but wat i wan most is to get new bra n underwear,

a SUNDRESS !

i wan a GUESS handbag,

a billabong also can

best of all online shopppin,

ive got some websites ..

e clothes are quite cheap la.

online shoppin is e best,

cause dun need ot go out !

hahahhaa.

WWW turns 4 tis month,

all ticket is like so cheap la,

$4 for kids,

$8 for adults !

on e 15th most probably willl be goin wit halizah & wani ..

not sure,

still haven't confirm yet lah..

den now at work,

we mus wear party hats lah,

den e hat always get blown away by e wind

its cute lah !

25th-27th will be havin REV CHALET,

lookin forward to it lah,

cause it'll be so diff from e last chalet ..

den azman has his "awards"

like we're all gonna be so crazy ..

maybe goin to have LUCKY DRAW also ..

ALWAYS BE MY BABY !

2008-07-28T23:12:00.000-07:00

anybody interested in watchin e national day FIREWORKS ?

i wanna watch lah ..

txt me if u wanna go watch it wit me ..

hope tt i get to work in e mornin,

so i can get to see e fireworks aft work (:

these few day in like super lazy lah,

lazy to blog,

lazy to go out,

lazy to tok to ppl,

lazy to upload photos,

lazy to watch tv..

too lazy to do anything.

wher did e ENERGETIC, HAPPY

LIVELY ME GO ?

im like not myself

i dun knw e reason y !

im very hot tempered,

im not as patience as be4,

i get agitated easily,

i keep losin my temper,

wats HAPPENING to me ?

wats WRONG wit me ?

HELP !

im so so tired !

wat shuld i do ?

ARH !

im at lost ..

somebody, PLEASE,

tell me wat shuld i do !

last sat wen ovr to my leeds hse

me, leed, pix, chin

e 4 of us

had so much fun..

we tok tok tok,

baked cookies,

played,

gossiped,

had supper ?

something like tt ..

its like a one nite camp la..

we even get e chance to "decorate"

our own cookie container

its oatmeal m&n butter cookies.

it taste so nice,

e best part is we nevr buy e instant mix,

we made evrything from e start,

whiskin e flour,

even e mixin & beatin we do it manually witout e machine ..

aft we baked it,

it a GREAT ACHIEVEMENT

a SATISFACTION !

You and me and all of the people

With nothing to do,nothing to prove and

It's you and me and all of the people and

I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

2008-07-22T05:13:00.000-07:00

IM BROKE !

im really really BROKE lah!

im left wit bout less den 10 bucks till friday ..

tinkin of borrowin from my father,

but den,

i dun wan too.

its the pride n the ego problem los.

later he'll jus keep naggin,

sayin tt i spent too much,

or nag tt i buy to many branded things !

like WTH..

im also not usin his money lah,

im usin my own hard "earned" money

i'd jus hope tt he will return the money tt i buy cig for him,

but den he say he now also no money ..

haiz ....

wen i have money,

evrybody also seems to have alot of money,

but wen i no money wan ppl to return,

evrybody also claim tt they have no money.

wat CRAP !

RUBBISH !

hahahha..

MONEY MONEY MONEY

money really makes e world go round lah..

no money is really no tok,

no money, means no shoppin.

i wonder next time how am i goin to control my finance,

if i have a family now,

my child n my husband will starve la..

nvm,

let them starve los .

heehee,

i knw tt im very bad.

my mom say tt i always shop,

is cause i jus need to make myself "SECURE"

something like tt lah,

she say tt i need to see the counselor or phsykatrics

(dunno hw to spell)

cause i feel insecured tt's y i wil keep shoppin

evrytime wen im sad i'll jus keep shoppin n eatin,

to pour out all my unhappiness ..

ppl tink tt im CRAZY !

i tink im, maybe i really am lah

do i still love u?

i tink so,

if not i wun feel so ..

dunno hw to describe e feelin,

u make me heartbroken,

make me sad,

make me cry,

you're a JERK !

but i really can't forget u.

y ? y ?

y can't i get u out of my mind ?

u broke my heart into million pieces ..

but evrytime i see u,

my heart softens.

i can nevr forget the smile,

the things tt u like.

so STUPID of me to sometimes even have the urge to buy u chocolates,

shirts, slippers etc ..

but i tell myself, i can't

y do u mean so much to me ?

wen i see u i really feel like cryin,

i still LOVE u !

i wun deny it !

you'll nevr knw hw much u've hurt me,

i dun hate u ..

AMANDA YONG WAKE UP WILL U !

STOP LIVIN IN E PAST !

stop dreamin,

me n him not possible ..

2008-07-20T06:33:00.000-07:00

just came back from dinner !

its was so delicious !

went to hotel WINDSOR

(no idea wher the hell is tt hotel situated lah)

its a teochew porrridge buffet,

my uncle paid for me ..

really eat alot la,

but its just porrigde,

aft awhile i tink i will be hungry again.

and its only like 10++

so cheap ..

today retail shop like alot of ppl only aft 4,

its like super super busy ..

but i hope tt got gd sales today !

today like all of us super de duper active la,

bittin each other ,

disturbin,

pinchin,

den got stupid foto of halizah los.

hahahahhha !

today the BITCH family like reunited lah,

nurza - MB
azirah - RB

halizah - NB

aishah - SB

nasy - BB

me - CBB

6 of us workin on e same day,

normally only got 4-5 of us,

will short 1 or 2 person de ..

♥ the heart nevr lies

2008-07-14T21:34:00.000-07:00

its like super super long since i last blogged lah ..

now evrything its solved,

wen its comes to heart matters now,

jus castin it aside.

i knw myself,give me some time ba,

its not tt i not tokin to u,

or dun wanna tok to u,

its jus tt so so many thing have happened

now its so PEACEFUL,

jus let thing be like this way first ba.

i knw even aishah is encouragin me,

but i really need some time la.

nurza's birthday was like fun los,

hahahha (:

i bet she enjoyed herself too.

even mr azman joined us for dinner

we bought like care bear cup cakes for her los,
so CUTE la !

these photos are like super old,but i still love them,

♥ the heart nevr lies

2008-07-03T01:24:00.000-07:00

IM SORRY !

IM GOIN TO MAKE THINGS RITE !

2008-06-30T20:15:00.000-07:00

ARH !

things r like gettin complicated la

i dun knw wat to do

one person is alrdy troublesome enuf,

but now ..

its not even a triangle relationship,

a triangle is complicted enuf

but no,

its a square

it invovles 4 person thing in this relationship.

i'll elaborate, but i wun say their names :

lets say

A is me

B is A gd fren

C is e guy tt B likes
D is e guy tt likes A

E is A ex bf

the story goes on,

A jus broke up wit E

den D suddenly tell me tt he likes me evn be4

A & E got tgt

but since A & E was tgt,

D decided to keep this feelin to himself ..

wen D told A aft A brke up wit E,

A was so stun

wat a shock !

B now is goin thru some difficult times,

but B knws tt she really like C

few days ago C told A tt he likes her even be 4

A & E got tgt,

C tell A tt he liked her for bout 8 months alrdy ..

C only had the courage to tell A now,

but A realise tt B really likes C

&
all along B thot tt C likes her,

now the really BIG problem is tt

C & D knws each other

A dun knw wat to do,
one is her gd fren,

A is scared tt she will fall for C,
but B is A gd fren,

will C & D be mad at each other ?

or both them will be mad A?

all this thing in A mind is goin to explode !

wat shuld A do ?

wuld someone tell her ?

A dun wanna hurt B,

but ppl say love is self fish ..

A also dun wanna hurt D

HOW HOW HOW ?

jus forget all bout it,

show u some photos taken by nasy,

at www retail shop fittin room (:

me rahman & nasy :D

You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

don't you know you can't escape me

cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way, you're never gonna shake me

cause you'll always be my baby

2008-06-24T02:35:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY HARIZ

i cannot wait for PAYDAY !
7th july

it tink tis months pay will be like alot ALOT ?

cause im like workin ot, ots & OT

and now im a ppt in www

(permanate part timer)

like many ppl ask me y dun i join full time,

tts a easy question to reply

i dun wanna be send to etp ..

and aft cpf deduction for e full timers startin pay

is bout 900+

its like not even a thousand

if i work as a ppt at least i'll get bout 1000

and e most impt,

i DUN NEED to go ETP !

i rally wanna MOVE out,

i can't stand it,

im like practically payin for evrything im usin or doin la.

so stupod i might as well move out and pay evrything myself,

plus no naggin, no shoutin no RESTRICTIONS from anybody

i hope tt i can find a room,

den once my payday,

i'd really hope to move out,

stay by myself !

went to IKEA,
look for curtains for foto kiosk,
me & aishah went to the showrooms,
we were like droolin lah...
i really wish to have a 2 room flat jus for myself,
design the flat by myself wit no restrictions (:

so long since ive seen my SON

he's so cute lah,

but he is SUPER de DUPER naughty.

but he listens to me,

cause i buy him toys,

maybe wen i get my 400 back im bring him to the movies !
these r fotos of my son :

除了想你除了爱你

我什么什么都愿意翻开日记

整理心情

我真的真的想放弃

你始终没有爱过

你在敷衍我

一次一次忽略我的感受

我真的感到力不从心

无力继续这感情

不值得我犹豫

不值得我考虑

不值得我爱过你

这种回忆

不值得我提起

不值得想起

不值得哭泣

2008-06-21T04:34:00.000-07:00

OMG !

i dun knw why i will have this feelin again

CURIOSITY REALLY KILLS THE CAT !

why why why ??

why is my hand so itchy,

i wen to see her blog

and i saw their photo.

ts really HURTS!

its like takin a knife and stab it into my heart,

i tink its worse den tat...

its like stabbin a knife into it and twist twist twist & twist

until it freakin comes out

i mean its not tat i purposely wen to find out or check it out,

it just so happen tat ppl keeps tellin things bout YOU !

why do i still freakin care bout him?

do i really LOVE him so much ?

im tryin my very best to move on lah.

i knw i can do it ~

and my BITCH family all believe tt i CAN DO IT !

why did you leave me n go for her?

did u even tink of how i feel?

wen u say tt u LOVE me, was it all jus a lie ?

i miss you !

i kept quiet bout the things tat u do is not tt i dun care,

it didn't bother me or u're not impt to me,

it really breaks my heart, ive cried..

but i jus dun wanna do anything is cause,

i thou thing wuld change for the better

and i was naive enuf to tink tt u wuld change for me

cause i give u really evrything..

i still thou tt ther wuld be hope

i'd just tried to salvage the LOVE tat we use to share

i'd jus try to save this relationship..

i knw u dun care anymore

i cannot promise tt i LOVE you forevr,

but i can tell u i LOVE u today,

i'll LOVE u tmr,

i hope tt i can tell u tt evryday ♥

its a scar tt u left it on my heart..

i'll nevr forget u.

i knw tt u're a JERK tt broke my heart into million pieces

but i'd still LOVE you !

i miss you !

When you look me in the eyes,

And tell me that you love me.

Everything's alright,

When you're right here by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,

I catch a glimpse of heaven.

I find my paradise,

When you look me in the eyes.

2008-06-12T02:11:00.000-07:00

im a new ME !

sometime i knw tat it not easy to get ovr,

but at least now im tryin...

life still got to go on witout him

im stronger den be4,

at least now i nver run away.

but evr since, i feel so relief

so long nevr have this feelin be4

well i guess,

broken hearts r often caused by unspoken words

yes i admit,

i still LOVE him ♥

But if I let you go I will never know

What my life would be holding you close to me

Will I ever see you smiling back at me?

How will I know

If I let you go